this is what I like about a blog. a real blog. I don't need to talk to anyone. I don't need to look for someone who's gonna care. hell, I don't care if you don't care. deal with it.

I really do feel tired. I mean, I try to be the best daughter, the best student, the best leader and the best mother. I try to be wonderwoman when I actually need my own hero in my life.

I feel like I'm falling in a bottomless pit... I can't feel the ground anymore. like walking on air where everything is just so messed up.

I just want to show someone that I treasure him. that I love him. and yet, he rejects that.

Now I feel bad.
I try to be the best.
but I guess, I'm just a failure.

You don't deserve me as your mother. I'm such a horrible person for you to treat me as your mother. It might hurt, but... I resign.