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Saturday, July 26, 2008

forgotten? @ 7:57 PM

You always say, you're forgotten. But you never dare to ask if its real or even why. YOU accused people of forgetting you because you don't know trust.

TRUST. Its what keeps friendship alive and real. I trusted you. Friends do not need constant reminding that you're friends. I should know. I have lots of friends like those.

You wanna know why I made that blog entry about Love FTI? I'll tell you why. Because I miss my old life. I miss my friends in the US. They remind me of my real home. That's why. And don't think too highly of yourself. You don't know anything.

You wanna know why I went on a 2-week hiatus? Because I got mad and jealous. Plus I was fucking dying. That's why. My heart was fucking failing on me because I decided not to go back when I needed to. Because I didn't want to leave you. I didn't want to loose you. I fucking left because my health needed attention and I didn't want you to worry. I didn't want to burden you with my problems. I don't want your pity.

Now, it doesn't matter anymore does it?
I'm not mad.
I'm just frustrated.
Because I can't get through your pride and stupidity.
I thought you actually understood me.
Hahahaha.
I assumed too much.

And so you know, I never liked YehSung.
never did and never will.

You disappoint me. Both of you.
You even agreed to meet with me recently.
You should have just stabbed me in the front instead of the back.
That way, I would have understood.
But now, I see that you're just like her.

Thanks.
For making me realize
and for making me see,
that I should NEVER trust people again.

running away