from my LJ:

this is a stupid entry.
seriously stupid.
because I dunno what good it'll do even if I do private it.
and keep it to myself.
hahaha.
Anyway, blogs are supposed to be private right?
and, anyway no one checks my LJ.

I dunno what's happening to my life.
I failed 2 subjects last term. and I didn't even feel a hint of guilt.
I know its wrong, but I think I deserve it.

This term, I'm going to do my best.
Yeah right huh? I always say this crap when I don't even try and do anything.
Actually, I'm just trying to be more responsible.
Right now, I'm reading Durkheim for a paper due on tuesday.
I want to do better, really.

Thesis is another factor.
I'll be getting the famous Dr. Hila to be my mentor.
wow. expectation much and not to mention pressure. hahaha.

Sigh. SJUPH.
Yes, its fun. its fulfilling.
but.. I don't know.
I feel crazy for doing this.
for starting this.
for pushing for this.
am I doing the right thing???

Man, is this all worth it?
what am I doing with my life?
am I going to earn something for doing all this shit?

Future?
Law School?
Korea?

Do you still have that drive to see Lee DongHae?
I don't think so...
You want to see him, but not now.
You still want him to be significant to your life.
I know.
I understand.
Don't worry, that day will come.